I asked ChatGPT what my biggest bottleneck was

I was working at my desk late the other night after already pulling a 12 hour day on set, realizing I’ve been drowning a bit lately.

It’s been next to impossible to stay on top of everything I’ve got going on.

I was doing some brainstorming with ChatGPT and I asked:

Based on all of our conversations, and everything you know about me, what is my biggest weakness or bottleneck when it comes to succeeding with my goals?

It lit me up lol. A long version of:

I don’t create and follow schedules.

My brain hates monotony and craves novelty.

And that my inability to follow systems I create is heavily stifling my overall growth, both as a creator and in business.

Ouch. What do you know, stupid robot?

The craziest part about that answer is that if you had asked me to guess what the answer was going to be before it gave it to me, I would have said the exact same thing.

How wild that I’ve known what my weaknesses are, for a long time, but have been refusing to act on them.

Organization, routines, and schedules are my kryptonite.

I’m not sure where exactly this comes from.

Maybe it reminds me of my old life in a corporate sales job, where everything is planned, scripted to a T, and you can’t color outside the lines.

Or my absolute hatred for rules. Or at least rules that make no sense. (I still don’t make my bed.)

I think I’ve convinced myself that the opposite of these things I hate is total spontaneous creativity.

That if I’m following a rigid structure or a plan, I’m not living a creative life.

But then recently I was watching a video by one of my favorite creators, and he was talking about how much of a routine person he is. That he has the same breakfast, at the same time, every day. He creates at the same time every day, and follows a very rigid routine.

And that it’s this routine that allows his creativity to flourish.

Then it dawned on me that I don’t, in fact, know everything.

That maybe the things I’ve known I should be doing for a long time now but have been resisting are just simply things I need to actually implement for a while and see if they benefit me.

The most important realization, I think, is that we can know full well what is best for us, and what the answers are to get to the next upgraded version of ourselves, but because of routine, or fear, or hell, maybe just plain stubbornness, refuse to take the first step forward.

So I’m trying it. I’ve created a schedule (gag) for myself that I intend to follow as much as I can for the foreseeable future.

I’ll let you know how it goes.

Caleb